The day my son went brain dead - 2 years later

Tomorrow it will be 2 years since my son went brain dead 12 December 2011 feels like yesterday in my life. The 14th of December he will be with Jesus for 2 years. My heart still feels like it is still today. I say it now and i have been saying it now for 2 years, it is not in the order of the day to bury your child. The day a parent looses a child, that parent is broken for life. I have been trying very hard but it is like the sadness drags me down again. Time does not heel this wound, you simply just learn to live with it. What to do. Feel like seeing and talking to no one, but that will not change how broken i am inside. It is times like this that i can understand why some people take their lives. But i now Gods plan with me i far from over. I am still needed to help. To share what damaged goods i am. Fact is the only thing keeping me going is knowing God is carrying me all the way. I really do miss my take away child. He was given to me and just taken away, way to soon.